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[Oct. 17th, 2007|05:40 pm] |
I met a boy online.
He seemed perfect, I felt like we connected, he said I ticked all his boxes.
I succumbed to his charms and slept with him first meeting.
He's not interested in me.
It hurts a bit.
Sometimes a lot.
I can't believe I thought what I did about him after such a miniscule amount of time.
I can't believe I walked right into the trap.
So obvious.
It's not happening to me again...I don't think I can take this feeling again. |
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[Aug. 26th, 2007|08:28 am] |
It was my last day at work in Melbourne on Friday.
I learnt how much esteem I am held in by my colleagues...it's not much.
I shall explain. It is standard when someone leaves for someone else to organise a collection to purchase them a gift. I have put in lots of $2 coins and $5 notes over the last 2 years for just that purpose.
All week I was complaining to some friends (2 of which no longer work for my employer and one that does not and never has worked in the area I work in) that I didnt think anyone was going to organise me a gift.
Well I got a gift...a rather nice gift (a pastel pink faux-croc make up bag and matching purse although I'm actually going to go to the store and swap these items for something I need a bit more like a handbag...but I digress).
So why did it feel like a blow? Because my friend advised me or the circumstances surrounding the gift (one of the friends I'm been complaining to). She emailed my manager asking "who do I give money to for Stella's present"...suddenly - 2 hrs later - a universal email went out asking for contributions for my gift. So clearly no one, not one of the people that I come in and work with every day, thought to organise anything. This last minute scrabbling gift was proved by the fact that my oversized card was only about 2/3 filled in.
I thought I meant more to people than that but clearly I have tickets on myself.
In other news, this packing and organising caper seems never ending. The TV is still the bain of my existence. There is a very small chance that Matt may buy it from me if the quote from the TV repair man that is coming tomorrow to look at the big screen TV that died recently is too high... but I can't count on that. It's all rather stressful. |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2007|06:54 pm] |
Well today I tackled my longest run yet. I caught the tram to Albert Park and ran around the lake...twice! It's 4.7km round so in total I ran 9.4km! I learned that slow and steady wins the race... most runners passed me but I still passed the walkers so that was fine with me... and some of the runners that passed me must have gone at it too hard coz I eventually passed them as they'd slowed to a walk!
It took me 1hr 10mins... that's a lot of plodding!
I have now entered myself in for the Brazillian Butterfly Queen of the Lake Fun Run - 10km - on the 5th of August. I'm also trying to talk Rach and Amy into joining me in fun runs in WA!
I've also turned into a running nerd as I now have a Heart Rate Monitor and have ordered a Nike+ which is a think that you put on your shoe that communicated with you iPod Nano (2nd generation) and keeps track of how far you've run!
Pity I've stopped losing weight... but thats more to do with me falling off the diet wagon... I think if I wasnt exercising I'd be totally screwed! |
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[Jul. 16th, 2007|08:00 pm] |
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I've booked my (one way) ticket... I'm off to Perth! |
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[Jul. 8th, 2007|06:04 pm] |
Ok well I'm one step closer to being organised about getting my butt to Perth... Matt agreed to my furniture split... I am taking about $800 worth of stuff less but I dont mind... it suits me and I said that this money could go towards fixing the wardrobe if he so chooses. I thought this would be harder than it was... and I get the LCD TV.
Now how on earth can I trust that my TV is going to make it to Perth in 1 piece?! |
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[Jul. 6th, 2007|09:55 pm] |
I did something at work today. Its only now that I realise that the basis of what I did it on was wrong...due to my own misinterpretation but part of me feels glad that I did it even though there is some back pedalling to be done and there will be a mighty uncomfortable week ahead of me.
To give some background, I am in a supposedly higher level important role in the company, I've been unhappy for at least 2 months out of the 4 months I've been doing it. I am i the role as a secondment that was supposed to finish at the end of May. This role was then extended for a month bce they needed me. Then it was extended another week as the ppl that were internally promoted to replace me (and my friend who left the company) were not able to be relinquished from their current role. Then it was extended for another week with a promise that this was the last time it would be extended.
I work with a woman thats been there for pretty much as long as the company has existed. She is unpleasant and lazy and seems to take advantage of a medical condition she has. She starts late, leaves early, takes more than the allotted breaks and thumbs her nose at authority (the very rare occassions it might be suggested that her behaviour is not acceptable) and has a sick day at least once a week.
I have spent most of the 4 months working with one other person in a job that by rights should have 3 as a minimum. I received no training. Everything is so screwed up in the company that my manager is rarely available to consult with properly. I have never been so stressed, have lost sleep, felt ill each morning that I think about the day ahead and some days I sit at my desk wondering if this is the day I lose it and cry bce I can't stand it. I just want to go back to my old admin role and put this experience behind me. All I can take away is that it will look better on a resume than any of the other roles I've had within the organisation.
Today I was handed a letter outlining my new salary. I took one look at it and freaked out as at the time my interpretation of the letter saw me think that I would be getting a pay rise in my new role. Instead of being excited I was horrified as I had been retained in my current role under what I thought was a lower wage. It was the final straw. I penned the most brilliant email I've ever written and sent it to my manager - I'll put it up 2mrw. In it I expressed my disillusionment and that I felt slapped in the fact by the company and that it was clear to see the level of appreciation that the company had for me based on the salary I was on (bce money is all they understand) and I advised I felt I deserved to be compensated for the time that I could have been earning a higher wage. I went on to say that I knew my manager did not make the decision on how much I was to be paid but I'd gone to her bce that's what is expected but that I was happy to go to HR. I sent a copy to some of my friends who have been raving about it ever since.
Unfortunately when I was coming home from the pub this evening on the train I reread the letter and worked out that the amount was inclusive of super and therefore it was actually advising me of a reduction in pay. I was expecting to be paid less to go back to my original role but now I'm realising that I can't just accept that. So now I have to eat a very small portion of humble pie. The basis for my email was incorrect BUT most of what I said in it is still relevant. So I have to go back to my manager and tell her "yep ok just worked out that this bit and this bit were wrong but I'm not sorry for writing it and don't worry coz this is actually not your issue at all but something I'd need to address with HR".
I've decided that I'm going to fight to at the very least retain my current rate of pay. I am possibly the most multiskilled consultant that they have in the service centre... I have been in almost every department and performed almost every job function and as such should not be treated in the same manner as the rest of the staff. I think that if they will not come to the party in any way then I'm going to resign. If I give the same amount of notice I was going to anyway (ie/ 3 weeks) it means that I only end up leaving 3 weeks earlier than I planned anyway. I have about 18 days annual leave owing to me so that would be enough to live on until I leave for Perth. I'm sick of being a door mat and I really have nothing to lose for standing up for myself for once in my life.
I've inadvertantly started the ball rolling and I guess I need to follow it through now or risk looking like an idiot (mroe so that I already will for having to partiall reneg my position. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2007|05:55 pm] |
I accidentally ran for just under 7.5km this morning!
I had this 6km route all mapped out (hadnt tackled that distance before) but as Stella does she got lost! I'm not sure what happened - 1 min I'm running around the Arden St Football ground (former home of the Nth Melbourne Kangaroo) and then suddenly I'm running towards Macauly train station! After running around in a big circle not knowing where I was (except that I was near the lost dogs home!) I got my bearings and worked out at what point I got lost and continued my run.
I knew I was up for a bigger distance when I looked at my watch and found I'd been going for 40 mins and wasnt anywhere near home... getting home took me 56 mins and when I went upstairs and mapped my course again I found I had gotten lost to the tune of 1.5km! Funnily enough if I had aimed at what I did I'd have convinced myself there was no way I was capable of it and ended up walking part of the way.... but bce it was all impromptu I didnt have to stop.
Granted 56mins is a pretty shocking time for 7 and a half kms but I'm not fussed at the moment.
Oh and yesterday I went to a meet up with Calorie King people. I actually walked into the cafe, stood in the middle and then walked out as I didnt know who they were! Then I stood outside and called Matt and finally got up the guts to walk over to the table I assumed was the right one and after that it was ok. |
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[Jun. 16th, 2007|08:26 pm] |
Run to the G tomorrow morning... eep!
I just made myself a "5km run list" playlist for my run which is about 45mins of music as I shouldnt take any longer than that... all my faves for running (and I love em in general!) |
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[Jun. 9th, 2007|06:31 pm] |
I'm kinda sick of ppl giving me incredulous looks when I say I'm moving to Perth, the look and then the "Cool....um....why?!" - you just know if I'd aaid I was moving to Sydney or London I'd get "That's awesome...wow!" and the look on their face would be one of excitement! I suppose this hasnt actually happened all that often... but it makes me paranoid (as things often do!).
Walking down one of the lanes in the city last night (Hardware Lane to be precise) surrounded by diners and a jazz band and a random art gallery reminded me of whats great about Melbourne... but my resolve is set - and everything is falling in place at work too! |
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